It can be done!

I did it!!! I am now a high school graduate!!! I am also enrolled in college and I just passed my first semester!! I am going to school to get my AA degree and continue on to get my BA in Early Childhood Education. I have an incredible job as a preschool substitute and floater. I am so blessed!

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a ton of bricks

There it is I feel it the pinch. The sting the pain of having a moment of quiet and truly being able to think and wham it hits you. Your children are getting older. YOU are getting older. My son is in first grade now. He is 6 years old! What?!! He was just a baby. Now he is past the half way mark to double digits. My daughter is 3 years old and I was just thinking of her in preschool. I absolutely LOVE where she goes to school its also where I work. I was just thinking about a child who is having difficulty and how to the child it may seem fast paced and a whole new experience and here we are getting frustrated and almost mad because the child is not up to par yet? I then start thinking about my child and how I have been working closely with her to make sure she is prepared. I am blessed. I have had the opportunity to be home with her. Not many people can say that. It has been such a wonderful blessing for Bella and I. She is now better prepared to enter into a school that is suppose to begin to help prepare you for the next level of education and well life. It hit me like a ton of bricks when I was thinking about this child who is struggling and how my daughter for the most part is doing well. How fast paced the preschool is and how most children only go a few days a week. How can we meet standards which I am sure are in place with good reasoning while making sure each child is set up with a life long love of learning? I just stopped and thought to myself and I wanted to cry about the fact that my babies are growing up. I just pray to God I am doing the best I can for them and their hearts. 

Dreams.....dreams

Teacher

A dream of mine finally coming true. This August I will officially be a certified Preschool Substitute Teacher!! Then continuing on to become a classroom Teacher.

Nobody is perfect

Every family is different and unique. That's what makes it YOUR family. All to often I compare myself with other people and their families and all it does is make me CrAZy! I want to take a minute to say that NO my 3yr old is not asleep yet and its 12:34am. Our family has had to become a bit of night owls to adjust to work and being able to see each other and spend time together as a family. I LOVE waking up in the late morning and turning over to see my daughter and man laying there next to me. What a delight!!! How wonderful each new day begins!! So were not up with the sun and we adore the moon and stars a bit more. Does that make our family unfit or wrong? Of course NOT! Every family flows together how it works best for them. To try and get up early every single morning just makes for a harder time at night. I would much rather sleep in and then be more awake when my whole family can spend time together. Making and eating dinner together (at the table) at 11pm is still just as good as eating round the dinner table at 6pm. As long as were doing the things together who cares when or how we do them. What matters most is our time spent together and having fun.

 

Avenged Sevenfold - Hail to the King

Back 2 School bash!!

2013-2014 

The new school year is just around the corner and I am so excited!! My son with be in first grade and my daughter will hopefully be in preschool!! She stays home with me currently. I am very blessed to be able to stay home with her. I work part-time at the church in the daycare. I pray to get the position in the preschool. So I can gain further experience and so Bella can go to school! I will also be starting at Valencia community college this August to attain my AA and so on and so forth. I am so excited to get back into school. I will be finishing up at Orlando Tech this July. I pray that I pass my exam which will mean I am officially certified to work in daycare facility's all over through DCF. I am also studying for my GED math test this Thursday. I am very anxious and nervous but determined to pass. I have taken the math portion 2 times already and I refuse to fail again. Also the state is revising the GED so I NEED to pass this or else I will have to retake every single subject AGAIN! A more positive note back to school means back to school supplies and great sales! I'm so giddy and can't wait to get a great bargain.

Oh I am excited!!

Back to school means back to school supplies!! I am so very excited for all the amazing deals! I cannot wait to be in class myself. I am so blessed ! I pray and hope to also be in a full-time childcare position by summer's end. Lord thank you for blessing me so. May everyone have a wonderful day.

I am standing still while the world is racing around me. I feel like I am on a good road but something keeps flashing like a bright blinking light at night. I can't get around it. I can't deflect it, its there. No matter what its there. I have to figure out how to get to it. How to get it to stop being so blinding. I have to do something. Then I immediately stop. I can't try to get it I am pulled with full force away from it. Nothing I can do will allow me to get to the light. I have so many questions and I want to know so many answers. I just feel stuck. I feel like no matter how hard I try to move in one particular direction I can't do it. I just want to move past this all. I want to be free from the pain and the aggregation. I want to live a peaceful life and not have this frustration any longer. I feel like no matter how hard I try there will never be peace.

A Mommy on a mission! With one more class and exam to go I should be officially certified through DCF to work in a childcare facility by summer's end. I will be able to teach a classroom setting!! I am so proud of myself and I have never been happier! I am currently working at St. Luke's United Methodist Church as a childcare staff member and it's a wonderful place to work! I have such a wonderful support system with my family, friends and the church. I would like to stop and thank God for blessing my family and I. I am headed into a positive direction where I can be good for myself, my family and others. I look to the future with hope and joy. I will be starting at Valencia community college this fall. I will be continuing my pursuit to become a primary or secondary Teacher. I absolutely LOVE what I do!! I look forward to spending time with the kids and developing their minds. I get such joy out of spending time with them and helping them to become intelligent, kind and well rounded people. I want to be a role model for my children to know that no matter what they can achieve their goals and become what they desire to be. I strive to prove to God, myself and others that no matter how life turns out you can accomplish what you dream. I strongly believe though that without a proper foundation and positive support children can become lost and misguided. That is why I hope to be that foundation and guidance for them. I have been through many things that have pushed me back more often than not but because of my faith and support from others I have managed to achieve my goals and to help others. Which is why I strongly believe that without those two things (foundation) and (positive support) life can be very lonely and difficult.

So here I am standing at the threshold of my future. I can clearly see my past. Although I remember a lot of wonderful things there is so much I want to leave behind. I want to leave that pain and bitterness that has held me back for so long. The agony of always feeling like I never amounted to anything and the constant reminder that I never will. I want to overcome those thoughts and live in a positive mindset. So I see my future but vaguely and I want to change that blurry picture and make it a bright and colorful one in clear view. Full of love and wonder! So I have planted my feet firm on the ground and set forth on the path that I believe will change my life for the better. Where I can finally stop look around and be free from the anxiety and pain that has always keep me back. That has always kept me frozen from doing anything but the same old crap. I was scared but I think it would be a lot scarier to stay in that "world" and never get to my picture of perfect. 

March Bible Verse

God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him won't perish but will have eternal life. John 3:16

God promises new life through Jesus

Jesus teaches us how to live like God wants us to. He shows by example. We are all loved and belong in God's kingdom. Jesus tells us and shows us how to achieve eternal life. This month's focus is new life through Jesus Christ. Think of a caterpillar that turns into a butterfly. We to can have new life with Jesus. 

I am excited to begin this new month! I am so blessed to be surrounded with great people and a fantastic job!! I get to do what I love and have fun! I also get to make a difference in children's lives....well at least I hope I do. I believe God has been really good to me and I just want to give back. Thank you Lord! 

Hope everyone has a wonderful night!

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Lovely February

 What a beautiful new month! Last month I was pretty much sick through its entirety. With a lot on my mind I must get it on out of my brain before I go coo coo. Where to begin.... well Sunday school has been wonderful and I enjoy teaching it! I am very blessed to be able to be with the children and help them grow in a positive way. I am learning so much myself. At times its hard to remember the Lord's words and live how he wants me to but I know with faith and determination I will manage. Oh and a whole lot of support which I have :) I am so ready to begin shadowing a Teacher. I would love to have my own class soon! I still have a few hurdles to jump before I know that will ever happen. Lord give me the strength and resources I need to accomplish what I need in order to be of good use to my family and those I would like to teach.

This month's verse is from Luke 10:27
"You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind, and love your neighbor as yourself."

As I read it I go over in my head how I love the Lord. What is it I do that shows my love for him? I have to explain this to kindergarteners and it helps me to simplify what God is trying to tell us. Its just simple. Keep God first and everything else is easy to do. I feel very honored that the children and adults accept me and believe in me to help bring the Lords words to life!

I am also reading about the different styles of teaching education. As a student learning to become a Teacher and a Mother I am always trying to stay informed. Currently I am reading about the Montessori educational approach. As I read about it I am already taken out of the normal setting of traditional teaching and procedures. For instance 2 1/2 year old children to 6 year old children are all mixed in the same classroom. At first I was thinking WHOA you have got to be kidding but as I kept reading the reasoning behind the mixed classrooms was I then amazed and thought to myself how brilliant! How often are we told what to do rather than choose what to do. The mixed classroom's is just one of the many elements that makes Montessori schools stand out and really pave the way for a new perspective on education. How wonderful would it be to see these advancements in schools across the nation or better yet all over the world! I believe education is important along with creativity. One of the reason's I feel so many children don't reach their personal potential is because we are all brain washed to believe we all learn the same. When in fact our difference's alone make up so much of our education so why not build an institution for the future generations that will teach them in the way they can grow and develop properly instead of being held back to wonder where did  they go wrong? Our educational system for a majority of American children is absolutely horrible. We are forced to learn things that aren't always what we are interested in in a very uninteresting way. I hope to make a change in the system for the better somehow.

As usual I have tons of thoughts circling in my mind and some-days are easier than others. Were all human and we all have our ups and downs. I want to be a more understanding and compassionate person. I would like to be someone my children can look up to and say they are proud of. So I am excited a new year is upon us and that I pray to God I won't be getting sick again for a long time.

A very special birthday will be this month!! Yes my sexy stud man Scott's birthday is this month! I feel its perfect since this month is pretty much associated with LOVE. He is such a loving, kind, honest all around wonderful man. Oh and what a man he is!! I love him so very much and I am so blessed to share another year with him! He is a blessing and I am still amazed every single day by him. My love for him grows and grows!! I love you Scott!! Happy early Birthday!! :)

This month is National Black History month among other special days and holidays. I hope to help bring equality to not just those who are black but of some many other races and cultures. To those who in some way are different then the "normal" person. I hope by my words and actions that I can bring forth a little more peace on this earth and help make my time hear somewhat of a preview of the coming life. We can have heaven on earth if we all try.

Thank you Lord for everything! Everyday you amaze and I am so very thankful for it all!!!


May EVERYONE have a lovely February!!