I want a popsicle!

It is the end of July and that means things are changing! I hopefully got a job! I should find out later in the week. My son begins kindergarten and I will be continuing my education this August! I am so excited for my son!! He will have so much fun and I will have peace of mind. He is so smart I just know he will enjoy himself! I will hopefully beginning employment as an official Teacher this September!! At the moment I volunteer and help out at the Sunday school. I would like to continue that as well. I will be busy not that I'm not already I have my hands full at home with just my daughter. I would just like to start achieving my goals and start focusing on what I would like out of life. I want to be able to take care of my family or at least help. I also plan on homeschooling my daughter while she is still at home. I know this seems like so much but I believe I can do it. I have support and love and I and determined! Now my daughter is asking for yet ANOTHER Popsicle! This has got to be the tenth one. Dinner time I think haha

It's a messy life

Life with a 2 year old is never dull. It's sticky and gooey and just plain strange sometimes. My daughter is always doing one thing or another. She is head strong, independent and brave. She has a great personality and a whole lot of gusto when it comes to life! I love her more than anything and I am so blessed to have her! It's just sometimes I want to scream and hide in a non-sticky, quiet, comfy place. I often wonder if I am doing the right things? Teaching her how to be a good human being. The basics and so much more. Other days I feel like doing nothing at all and defeated by days end. I just want my kids to have great opportunities in life and to really enjoy living!! I need to learn how to relax and just lets things be messy for now :)

I really have to push myself

oh I do NOT want to workout BUT I need to! I am so not motivated today :/ I also think I had way TOO much coffee. I feel like I am going to crash. Looks like I am going to nix coffee all together. Damn Wawa grand opening and your free coffee. How can I resist FREE! Well I hope everyone has a good day.

ouch I hurt :(

So after the past few days I have been busting my butt and working out I have officially lost 2 pounds and I couldn't me more sore. Today I am taking it easy but still eating properly. Tomorrow I will be back in full force! I am very proud of myself for continuing. I even ate 2 bananas and my oats and almonds cereal yesterday at the movies! I am sticking to it no matter what!!!

I can't do push-ups :/

I did well today! I tried P90X and I went swimming. I ate healthy and had no soda. I am very proud of myself! I know the journey ahead will be rough but it will be worth it!! I want to be strong and be able to keep up with my kids. I want to be able to wear cute clothes and well the clothes I own now and feel confident. It really is true no pain no gain when it comes to fitness. Here is to more sweating and happiness!

I've had enough!!!

That's it!!! I am 25 years old and I want to feel 25 not 95 ugh. I am so sick of battling myself everyday and at the end of the night regretting all I've eaten. I am threw!! I want to wear cute clothes and feel healthy! Tomorrow I begin!

8am Jog and P90x!



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